Recently, I saw that TLA Video was having a sale on gay-themed movies, so I decided to take the opportunity to purchase two of my recent favorite gay independent films: Shelter and Socket. I watched Shelter this past Thursday and confirmed how much I like it. I also fell in love with a song on the soundtrack, Shane Mack‘s “More Than This.” Here’s a clip from the movie featuring the song:

I subsequently purchased all four of Mack’s songs on the soundtrack. Each of the songs is great, but this one seems to be sticking with me the most. I didn’t (and still don’t) know much about Mack. He’s apparently working in Nashville and Los Angeles at the moment.

I think what appeals most to be about this song is the refrain:

If this is all, if this is all we ever were
At least I loved enough to hurt
Enough to hurt

Something about that sentiment appeals to me. It’s kind of a nice way of thinking about emotional pain, I suppose — if it hurts then it must have meant something. I like it as a way of recovering the time you spent in pain — it wasn’t a total waste. Maybe you learned something by going through the hurt, but it also means that you loved enough for it to have mattered to you. I like that idea.

The “big” song from the movie is “Lie to Me,” which is also good. Here’s the video of that song:

This is a good song too. I also like the other two I downloaded, “I like That” and “Take the Long Way Home.” But “More Than This” is definitely my favorite.

Here are the lyrics to “More Than This”:

I’ve burned a hole in, in the map I made
And I’m not sure what I missed
And I just make the same mistakes
Can I be more than this?

If this is all, if this is all we ever were
At least I loved enough to hurt
Enough to hurt

I played a fool, yeah I played a losing game
And let go of my innocence
And I don’t know, I’ll never be the same
Can I just be more than this? more than this?

If this is all, if this is all we ever were
At least I loved enough to hurt
Enough to hurt

I was standing in the rain, had my face in the mirror
And made nothing into bliss
And I found losing was just a trend
Yeah is there more than this?

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